The past couple of weeks have been an incredible time of relaxation, and enjoyment with family. I spent a week relaxing and celebrating my 21st birthday, a week with my brother in town, and a week in Estes Park CO with my family.
Coming back to real life, and leaving vacation is always hard.
I have been living life to the fullest, dangerously as always, and every morning start the day with a thankful prayer asking God to take control and bless my life.
Yet today I woke up and realize just how far I had strayed from his truth, plans, and dreams for my life.
I have made it a goal to wake up and live each day to the fullest and give each hour my best. I am never disappointed at the end of the day and have a fantastic day! Yet I look back at the past year, and haven't come very far according to my goals.
Basically today I became very disappointed because I viewed progress as how many goals I have gotten accomplished. Some of those goals have changed, because in the process of living each day to my best, I have grown as a person and set higher goals and demolished others.
Progress can't always be measured by how many goals you get accomplished, but how much stronger you grow in TRYING to accomplish those goals.
FOR example, I look back at who I was 1 year ago, and see how far I've grown in my relationship with others, GOD, and my self.
How much I have learned about the world, my body, mind, soul, compassion, and hard work. I think a year ago I was an extremely selfish person even though I didn't own anything but a backpack. Now, my heart has grown bigger, and I see God's blessings all around me.
Today I woke up with doubts crowding my mind. Doubts about God, my purpose, my vision, and so forth. I realized I felt this way because even though I live every day to the fullest, I haven't been spending time with God. How can I expect to just call him up and ask him for favors when I haven't spent time with him, how can I just push "God time" aside and expect to FEEL the same.
Quiet time isn't just something on my schedule. It is time in my day to nurture WHO I am as a person. Christ is living inside of me, flowing and talking to me. I need to be in prayer, and in God's word daily- and spend TIME talking to him. Recently I haven't.
I have made my quiet time like a drive through spiritual milkshake, "a number 2 and make it snappy!" Once I get my God fix, along with coffee, in the mornings I am out the door and ready for my day. Quiet time isn't something to play around with. Although I've treated that time that way. Quiet time is time to meet with the holy Creator of the universe, to learn about him, to praise and talk with him.
The reason I feel like he isn't near, is because I haven't been drawing near to Him. His word says, Draw near to me, and I WILL draw near to you.
God I'm sorry for not spending time with you! What is this life but a pleasure and pain game, if I'm not living and walking in you. I want to be in and living through you!
Tomorrow is a new day, with new opportunities to share his love.
I am working through Life Church's Chazown program and am finding it extremely helpful in learning more about exactly what GOD's plan looks like for my life. God has given me a dream, and slowly but surly I am seeing that become a reality.
God's way is truly best. I love you God. You are enough for me.
I'm comming back to the heart of worship-
And it's all about you, it's all about you Jesus.
I'm sorry for the thing I've made it, but it's all about you it's all about you Jesus.
Coming back to real life, and leaving vacation is always hard.
I have been living life to the fullest, dangerously as always, and every morning start the day with a thankful prayer asking God to take control and bless my life.
Yet today I woke up and realize just how far I had strayed from his truth, plans, and dreams for my life.
I have made it a goal to wake up and live each day to the fullest and give each hour my best. I am never disappointed at the end of the day and have a fantastic day! Yet I look back at the past year, and haven't come very far according to my goals.
Basically today I became very disappointed because I viewed progress as how many goals I have gotten accomplished. Some of those goals have changed, because in the process of living each day to my best, I have grown as a person and set higher goals and demolished others.
Progress can't always be measured by how many goals you get accomplished, but how much stronger you grow in TRYING to accomplish those goals.
FOR example, I look back at who I was 1 year ago, and see how far I've grown in my relationship with others, GOD, and my self.
How much I have learned about the world, my body, mind, soul, compassion, and hard work. I think a year ago I was an extremely selfish person even though I didn't own anything but a backpack. Now, my heart has grown bigger, and I see God's blessings all around me.
Today I woke up with doubts crowding my mind. Doubts about God, my purpose, my vision, and so forth. I realized I felt this way because even though I live every day to the fullest, I haven't been spending time with God. How can I expect to just call him up and ask him for favors when I haven't spent time with him, how can I just push "God time" aside and expect to FEEL the same.
Quiet time isn't just something on my schedule. It is time in my day to nurture WHO I am as a person. Christ is living inside of me, flowing and talking to me. I need to be in prayer, and in God's word daily- and spend TIME talking to him. Recently I haven't.
I have made my quiet time like a drive through spiritual milkshake, "a number 2 and make it snappy!" Once I get my God fix, along with coffee, in the mornings I am out the door and ready for my day. Quiet time isn't something to play around with. Although I've treated that time that way. Quiet time is time to meet with the holy Creator of the universe, to learn about him, to praise and talk with him.
The reason I feel like he isn't near, is because I haven't been drawing near to Him. His word says, Draw near to me, and I WILL draw near to you.
God I'm sorry for not spending time with you! What is this life but a pleasure and pain game, if I'm not living and walking in you. I want to be in and living through you!
Tomorrow is a new day, with new opportunities to share his love.
I am working through Life Church's Chazown program and am finding it extremely helpful in learning more about exactly what GOD's plan looks like for my life. God has given me a dream, and slowly but surly I am seeing that become a reality.
God's way is truly best. I love you God. You are enough for me.
I'm comming back to the heart of worship-
And it's all about you, it's all about you Jesus.
I'm sorry for the thing I've made it, but it's all about you it's all about you Jesus.
1 comment:
Today I googled "haven't been spending time with God" and your blog popped up on the search.
Thankyou for sharing your heart!
So many times I have been in this place of complacency and once again I find myself there.
I am 27 and have been following Christ for 16 years, but the past 2 years have been most challenging of all.
First, I lost my mother to cancer and 7 months later my husband and I welcomed a baby boy into our lives! And then, almost a year ago, my dad passed away.
Losing my mother and becoming a mother at the same time has twisted up my emotions so much that I have a hard time even speaking to God. Yet, I still do... just not as often as I use to.
I have been trying to spend time with God again, (having a toddler doesn't make that easy)... but even now that I have more than 30 minutes a day to myself... I am still not spending that time. I just don't get it.
I'll pray for you.
You pray for me.
a sister in Christ,
Stefanie
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