What a blessed day!
Someone is letting me use the school computer again today, so what's the harm in posting twice in one weekend. Yesterday I had a lot of time to research and rest. I actually really am loving it here in Noida, even though I'm not in the mountains. Yes, my heart thirst for the nature, and my eyes thirst to be quenched in the green of mountain sides, and rice fields. Still my soul is at peace within me, and the presence of fellowship with everyone here is so rich, I feel like I am home for the present moment, and as if I should stay longer.
I actually was looking at the top universities in India for nursing, and the one I'm most interested in is right here in Noida. I made a friend that goes to school there, and hopefully it will work out we can visit the campus of Noida International University. It is super nice, and resembles buildings of parliament, placed in large green spaces, and lush landscaping. My heart is tugging to study something and learn. I want to do this. The semesters here are not like back home. There is a school year, with 4 days of Christmas break separating the year in half, but you can't join half way through the year. The deadline to apply for a university was in March, when I was teaching in Thailand, and the application time starts in November of this year. However because Noida is an international university, I think they accept applications and divide the year into semesters. I need to do more research, and pray about it. The weird thing is, I thought I would feel stressed and begin to hyperventilate in the city, but God has given me the grace to adapt and love where I am. I truly sincerely love where I am, and what I'm doing.
Today was church, and super encouraging. We talked about making disciples of Christ, taking up our cross, and following him. Am I holding anything so tightly so it is keeping me from following Christ? Like the rich man who God told to sell all he owned and give it to poor. I realized that I have been holding onto my past. My past life, my past accomplishments, my past failures, and hurts. For me, I don't have any earthly things anymore, but the thing I needed to let go of was my past. God has been speaking this quietly to my heart, and even when I watched Life church.tv online, then it was like confirmation that I just had to let go.
I am breaking the old labels people have given me, and receiving a new name in God.
Forgiving others that have hurt me, and now forgiving myself. Realizing that I am not what I did, but I am who God says I am. A new creation. The old has gone and the new has come. I am excited and anticipate God doing great things in my life.
I got to click the slides today at church! Yea! :)
2 comments:
Hi Jena,
Was so inspiered to read your stories. I read most, but time for me to stop for tonight. I need more rest. I stayed up too late last night and at work i was soo sleepy, it was terrible. i decided to organiza the storage cabinet. categorizing the office supplies. I like office supplies, pens paper, envelopes, so I felt more productive. I found some old accounting paper with 25 columns on it. The page was about 48 inches wide... ridiculous, how did they store those archives. the paper was brittle in places.
I was so inspired by your zooming around eating that I cooked some rice dans stir fired vegetables, itl was done so fst1 all i need to do to make my husband interested is fry garlic and he comes into the kichen and washes the dishes while i cook. I'm going to see the baby soon. What a nice name, belle-marie, i hope I spelled it right. all for now. I sent your link to Jonathan. He is in Philly in grad school. It is hard, lots of equations to explain heat transfer. There are lots of forign students too. he is on face book.
I better sign off for tonight.
Hi jena,
Ive been meaning to red your blog. ll your zooming around inspired me to make rice a nd stir fried vegetaables. i've got to go to bed and get sleep. Sometimes i think there must be more to life than the struggle to eat and sleep, but here i am with those tasks and get variety in life yet make a home and create stability. Life isn't so different here, only some things take less time. Omar's son and family finally got permission to come to the Us for a year and build a transportation business. Its good in a lot of ways, but he has some customs I don't like. but i hope to stay in charge of myself and resources. He has asked me to co-sign for car loan, but I don't like the loans I have myself with Omar, so have to say no without feeling guilty. I am encouragd by your bravery and also ability to say no and recognize unhealty situations. Sent a link to Jnathan. He likes foreign travel and people. he certainly meets a lot in engineering.
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